Shekinah CG

Praise the Lord that I able to connect to Shekinah CG through Google Blogging as i unable physically attend the CG now. Shekinah CG is very meaningful CG to me as this is the CG God led me to be in to help my faith revived after a year of my faith volatiled. My born nature in melancholy and doubtful personality, and thus in journey to pursue God had caused me some drawing back from God. Thanks for Shekinah and prayers from Dell transformer group (Dell prayer meeting from EPCC ) to help in drawing me back to the Kingdom of God.

As currently I am joining Chinese CG as sense God is asking me to learn something new in chinese service. This thought came to me at one night that I was terribly lost my words in praying, and holy spirit spoke to me to ask me attempted a prayer walk in Chinese. That was happened in September thus i started my chinese blog and attending chinese service in EPCC in September.

My chinese language actually is the worst subject of result getting in my SPM. By the way, it still exists as a strong bond to my background recalling and the most susceptible language to my feeling. It could be because it is my mother tougue. As analyzed my feeling, I had a better understand the greatest bond between human and God which is the affection, which is so called in bible: God is love, love God first, and this is the relationship that always emphasized by Christiniaty. And thus I am learning my life to understand the spirituality with God and human, which I believe the inherent meaning within is a flawless artistry and it is the greatest wisdom in life.

I am so glad that able to meet the sisters and brothers in Shekinah. Although sometime they are quiet and i unable to connect with them in words, but thanks God that i able to connect with them by heart in the name of Jesus, as we are sister brother in the kingdom of God, they are lovely and wonderful to me.

因为爱, 我获得恩典

我人生的转折点,就在我祖母病患癌症的那时. 她身躯被病魔折腾于痛苦时, 也驱使了我的灵魂挣扎去寻觅解脱.

因此 ,我明白了人间的情, 人间的爱, 能得划出一份细致、准确合拍的道路去与万物之灵的上帝丝丝入扣的联系; 也就是这一份力量, 我得智慧去明白上帝的恩典与真理.

祖母病世三天前, 我接受了主,喜悦平静的回家. 到医院见她没意识的病卧在床,感应到她手脚颤抖时,我哭得非常凄惨.虽然难过, 因为圣灵在伴,我心中依然平静.

祖母的声音及表情, 编写了我二十年岁月的回忆.她陪伴我长大, 塑造我人生价值观, 她的冲动的爱, 高温的温暖着我的心窝, 二十年编织了我与她丝丝入扣的感情.

因为家人都是非常坚持他们的信仰及传统, 我并没有机会在那三天里成功的肯定我祖母肉体后的世界.或许这是上帝的意思, 祖母因为去世前成了植物人, 我不能获的她的心声的反应, 因此我得用我的一生去祷告, 一生去进修我的信念, 那对上帝超越生死力量的信念. 耶稣用他的血赎了我们的罪, 让我们有福得圣灵的果子,在我生命已是个奇迹.

我深信, 如果我不放弃心里的这一份爱, 上帝会赎我的祖母的灵魂回天国,在我生命后创造另一个奇迹.

三天前是我祖母的农历死纪,三天在三天前,我因为在怪自己没有美丽的词语祷告而害怕不能感动上帝时, 我突然感应到圣灵对我说: 祷告的语言是情感,那心中的爱意, 而不是挂在口头上的话语. 孩子, 上帝被爱感应, 因为爱你.

希望以上,祝福有情有血的你们.